Tuesday, October 28, 2008
All is Quiet
Friends
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Weird Day
We talked about lots of disconnected things! But I listened and agreed with it all.
At 5 pm she took her sleeping pills and other meds. She went to bed at 6- 6:30 pm. She hasn't been asleep yet. It is now 11:10 pm. I just gave her another sleeping pill around 45 minutes ago. They obviously do not work. I am kinda at my wits end with the sleeping pills. Why don't they work? I know they would kick my butt, if I took a half of one. I'm sure this will be another sleepless night for me. At least until early in the morning, when I fall asleep and then she gets up and I don't hear her. Thankfully, Tim usually does. I am going to move things around tomorrow and put a small couch in her room where I will be able to sleep. Maybe then I'll be able to hear her get up then. I just went in her room for the 6th time to get her laid back down. This time I brought her out and sit her in the recliner. I guess she will sleep there the rest of the night. If that works, she may sleep there every night. I just know she is going to fall and hurt herself and I don't want her to do that. This has just been weird day. She just said she was going to the airport. Hope she has a good trip!
Busy All the Time
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Physically Better, Mentally Out to Lunch
Friday, October 24, 2008
Expectations
Do not ask me to remember.
Don't try to make me understand.
Let me rest and know you're with me.
Kiss my cheek and hold my hand.
I'm confused beyond your concept.
I am sad and sick and lost.
All I know is that I need you
To be with me at all cost.
Do not lose you patience with me.
Do not scold or curse or cry.
I can't help the way I'm acting,
Can't be different 'though I try.
Just remember that I need you,
That the best of me is gone.
Please don't fail to stand beside me,
Love me 'till my life is done.- Unknown
I just needed a reminder that "the best of my mom" is gone and will never be back. I needed a reminder that I can't try to reason with her...she has no reasoning skills left. At the beginning of this ordeal, I said she was like a 4 year old, just like Cabot. I was so wrong. She is nothing like Cabot. Cabot can be reasoned with, Cabot understands what you expect him to do, Cabot can purposely try your patience. Mom can't be reasoned with, she doesn't understand what you want her to do and she does try your patience, but not on purpose. I thought if I could treat her like a 4 year old, everything would be okay. That doesn't work at all. This Alzheimer's disease is cruel and sometimes unexplainable. So now, I have this poem on my mirror in the bathroom, on my refrigerator, on my sewing table. And when I forget that all she needs from me is love, I can read this poem again and again. I need to understand that I can have no expectations from her. But she deserves one expectation from me...just to love her. And I do.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
No Sleep
These are trying times
And it continues
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Rough Evening
Time Away
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Where Have I Been?
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Update on Tim's Mom
Just Another Day In...
Monday, October 13, 2008
Third Good Day...But Who's Counting?
Sunday, October 12, 2008
A Good Sunday
Saturday, October 11, 2008
All is Quiet...For Now
Sleepless in Springport
I am counting the days until we leave for Texas. Okay, I'm sure I won't want to come back, but at least I will have a few days of R & R. Well, as much rest as you can get when you are around a 4 year old and a 7 month old! But it will be fun!
Friday, October 10, 2008
A Good Day
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Good Day Out
My Mom is back...for awhile
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Bad Bad Night
BLESSED ARE THEY
Blessed Are They
Blessed are they who understand
My faltering step and my shaking hand.
Blessed are they who know today
My ears must strain to catch what they say.
Blessed are they who never say,
"You've told that story three times today."
Blessed are they who know they ways
To bring back memories of yesterday.
Blessed are they with a cheery smile
Who've stopped on their way to chat a while.
Blessed are they who ease the days
On my journey Home with loving ways.
I just want to thank those who have come out to spend some time with my mom. I know she doesn't remember it in her mind, but I have to believe she remembers in her heart.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Winding Down
She's Back!....Almost
Monday, October 6, 2008
Our First Fun Outing!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Spending the Day in Florida
Saturday, October 4, 2008
A Night Out!
Just Another Day
Friday, October 3, 2008
Good, Good Day!
Almost "Normal?"
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Bad Morning, Good Evening
Confusion Abounds in Springport
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Time For a Haircut!
It is still kinda wet in the picture. If I put enough "stuff" on it I think it would really "spike" good! Diana, you might have to even it out when you get here! Oh, well, it will grow out and by then, maybe she'll be able to go get it cut for real! Tim's mom got me some shampoo that you just rub in the hair and doesn't need to be rinsed. That will be good to have. Mom has had a good day today. Has eaten well and was very cooperative with the therapist. He got her to drink a big glass of water. Why won't she listen to me?! I even went out and bought some "scrubs" to wear, but I don't think they fooled her one bit! Right now she is watching Andy Griffith and waiting for me to turn it to the game shows. I am taping NCIS and she can't watch that, so I stick in a dvd until it is done taping. You really can watch too many game shows! Really!
Well, I need a haircut desperately myself...I am going to go hide the scissors!